性格基因: ->
你是个自我压抑的人，对于事情的看法比较悲观，虽然害怕挫折和痛苦，面对变局时，仍能冷静以对，这是你最与众不同之处。你的成长过程并不如外界或自己期待 的顺利，感情的路走来也不算顺遂。
身心的负面经验，让你自小就比一般人来得早熟，对于死亡与性的感受深刻，一生似乎都在这两个议题中打转。对于自我要求相 当严格的你，全身上下总是上紧发条，很难完全放松。你要小心自己有自残或习惯自舔伤口的倾向。
对于喜欢的事物，可以一头栽进去而无法自拔，对于不感兴趣的 事物，则是碰都不想碰，对于人你也是如此。
生命路线: ->
你是一个意志力很强、干练、早熟，但不怎么快乐的人，不管年纪多大，总是给人一种老成的感觉。如何变得更豁达、真正快乐的善待自己，是你必须致力的课题。 你性格的矛盾和痛苦点，经常透过感情和与家人的互动展现出来。
经常为他人牺牲，但末了又会心不甘情不愿，这样的人生是浪费能量且毫无意义的。对于酒精、咖 啡因、尼古丁和药物的摄取量要节制，否则会受制于这些有害物质。性的压抑会衍生成对很多事物的不满。学会用“减法”过日子，才能真正领悟有“舍”才有“得 ”的道理。

photossss from concert

nah...i kno i look FAT=,=

me><

the grand pianossss
nice rite?

1st Asia Grand Piano Concert

okay...
i juz back from the 1st ASIA GRAND PIANO CONCERT 13 hours ago><
hah...
it wasn't bad
it was NICE
all the PIANISTssssss were awesome
duh....
but i am nt 1 of them
although i kno how to play piano=.=
but it doesn't mean tat i am expert rite?

okay...
i dressed FORMAL
FORMAL
it KILLS me...
cuz i look WEIRD
n FAT toooooooooooooo=,=
i think among the gals i am the FATTEST
duh....
my weight keep on GAINING==
take quite few of photos
but ALL those photosssssss are not wif me now==
xian lar....
wan upload oso cannot....
i wore high heels
n the result is....
i am still NOT as high as BIRD=,=
yaya.i kno how SHORT am i -,-
the high heels make my legs PAIN....
pain like HELL
but it oso make me FEEL taller:)
haha....
okay ....
tat's all for today
arhhhhhhhhhhhhh.....
the skul is goin to REOPEN
n all my HOMEWORKssssssss is left UNDONE yet
GREAT><
okay....
let's PRAY for me==

p/s:i will upload sum photosssss when i get it^^
n hope u guys kno wat am i typing==

no1 be there for ME

like i typed on my pm
okay...
this is how i feel nowadays=.=
yaya...
i kno i am BORING
keep on thinking tis kind of stuff==
but
many many things keep on happening n it helps me to think MORE
i kno i kno
i look STUPID when i typed tis kind of thingssssssssss
sum1 ask me before

''y will u wanna sum1 be there for u n instead y dun u be there for SUM1 else?''

when u ask me tis question tat day i din answer u
actually nt really i duno how to answer or i duno how to answer
it's juz....
i DUN WAN to answer=.=
actually
i will be vry vry vry vry HAPPY if there is SUM1 else needs me outside there....
at least i can comfort myself tat
i am still AVAILABLE for sum1

there is still sum1 needs me n i am nt USELESS
but....
the fact is....
there ISN'T any1
NO. ONE. at. all.
looks like when every of them faced problem
none of them will THINK bout me or try to SPEAK to me
mayb
they thought tat i have enuf of PROBLEM to face ...
duh....
actually i am nt blaming others
i juz feel tat i am USELESS=.=
i duno wat to say....
the more i type the more i feel tat i am USELESS the more i feel tat i am STUPID
DAMN it
F***　
so....
as a result....
i nt dare to be too close wif a person
it will make me feel tat
i am a BURDEN
hope tat i am not==

so i need to PRETEND

pretend tat i do not CARE at. all.

so

LET'S PRETEND!!!!

tomoro goin to MPO
it sounds great n fun i kno>< color="#ff0000" size="5">WEIRD wif my DRESS n HIGH HEELS
oh my gosh=.=
kay....
imagine
a 150cm gal wearing a long dress=,=
yaya...
i kno it look weird=.=
n the dress costs me 100 bucks T.T
duh...
hope tat i won SLEEP during the concert==


*p/s: I used bck ENG
hope u readers kno wat i am typing==

假装

很抱歉
又用回华文了
哈哈
不懂要讲什么
如题
假装
其实
有很多事情
能讲是自己懂得
但是
有时在人前人后
就会假装不懂
有时感觉上
假装的功夫如果做得很好的话
那么
或许
也能把自己也隐瞒过去
不让自己去想
假装的不在意一切
有时让人看见自己在意一样东西
那人会觉得自己放不下或是很傻
不希望让人觉得
我是很在意一样东西的
可能潜意识的
我要自己是强的
[可是我还是觉得我很弱]
其实
很多很多的细小东西
我都会去在意
但是
有的人确认为你多心或小气
那有多傻啊
或许我真得太会去在意细小的东西吧
但是
在意了表露出来
会让人觉得自己很幼稚很无聊
我不懂自己在讲什么
只是现在目前想到什么我就打什么
所以朋友们
你们会读得很辛苦
[也可能没人去读]
总之
在意了
最好就不要表现出来
还要假装自己没事
那是最好的
酱别人永远不懂你在想什么
或许也能把自己给骗了
我也不懂我自己再打什么=.=
无聊的一篇><

i cant really SLEEP for these FEW nites...
i really need to find a WAY to SOLVE my problem
DAMN it
i really hate for being so ABNORMAL
i wan MYSELF back!!!!!!!!!!!!
HELP!!!!!!!!!

juz now lying on bed to SLEEP
n i found tat
i cant sleep AT ALL.==
GREAT.=.=
i am now trying to use ENG in my blog.
nt CACAT english.==
so...
wish me luck^^

feel like goin to be SICK...
wahaha....
i have nt been SICK for CENTURY==
my leg pain like HELL

人活我活
別人活得快樂我活得辛苦
好笑
自己拿來的我懂==
無語

閑閑
所以隨便打點東西
悶
悶透了
嚴重的悶
已經不停的灌睡自己
然后12點起身
開電腦開到現在
duno wat to do
唉
悶悶的生活
誰要出街？^^

越想越覺得不公平
我知道我不應該這樣想
我知道我不應該醬
我真的也不想往那個方面想
可是我不能
我很辛苦
真的很幸苦
為什么就這么不公平
很抱歉因為我看不開
很抱歉
所以我不想留在這里
我不想看到你們
我 不 想
誰要跟我換家？
我要的不是你們叫我不要這樣做
我要的是幫忙
頹廢的生活讓我想很多
我發現我不能過頹廢的生活
我應該找些東西做
我應該離開
離開這個我不想呆在的地方

假期第一天我就悶到毛醬
誰能救我
不能啊不能啊
我需要找東西做
我要出去
我不要關在這里==
I NEED SUM1 TO TALK TO
我不想在家
我不喜歡那種氣氛
我不喜歡