Addiction, Again.

Hello world, hello guys.
Today is my big day. =DDD
Today is my birthday. =)))
No no no, I am not happy at all.
I am OFFICIALLY 20. OFFICIALLY.
NOOOOOOOOO.~~~~~~~~~~
I am OLD. D=
Seriously, I am OLD.
Its time to be more mature. =D
Its time to be more feminine.
Nah, I know it sounds like craps but yeah, can't be childish anymore. =(
A short post for today.
I went to IPC today ate Winter Warmers but I not really like it.
Just came back from dinner with family.
I have not study AT ALL.
Seriously, I am so damn worried.
I didn't receive any bday present this year, but maybe Renae will give me?
Nah, its just a guess.
BTW, my dad konon-nya will buy me a MacBook Pro.
But I don't know want to wait for the next generation MBP or not. XP
Since I haven't make wishes, I will make it here. =)
1. Slimmer (HAHAHAHA)
2. Good result
3. MacBook Pro
4. DSLR  (Most probably my sis will get it next year, I think?)
5. The right one. =)

A 20th Birthday, A simple birthday.
I found that I don't like birthday at all.
It make me feels the loneliness.
Or because I already old? I am afraid to countdown for my age?
Nevermind, I will end here.

My bday present. Its so cuteeeeee <3<3<3

I hope to have your wishes today, it will  be the best birthday ever. 

How naive I am. 

It's lies, It's lies. I love you. I love you.

Nahhhhhhhhh, I know I should be doing my Investment assignment but I don't care. =)
Investment Management is making me insane. =...=
Urghhhhhhh.
I am watching previous videos.
I don't know why I have the guts to do so, but yeah, I have did so.
It's still hurt, deep inside.
A wound that people left for you, no matter how hard you try to ignore it, it will just be there.
It will still hurts.
It doesn't mean that time can heal everything;
It doesn't mean that by time to time you can pretend that it doesn't hurt any-more;
It doesn't mean that it had faded and won't hurt any-more;
It's the hurt that make people growth;
It's the hurt that make people know what is exactly still happening.
I am so naive to think that I have overcome it.
I am so naive to think that it will be okay.
I am so naive to think that everything will be okay.

Memories. A word that sounds sweet but hurts. 

Memories. A bitter-sweet word.

In Heaven

It has been a while since the last post. And yeah, I am back. =)

I don't know what had happened to me for these few weeks or maybe these few months.

I am kinda lost. Yes, I meant it, I am lost.

Why am I lost? I don't know. I am in such dilemma that I don't know what can make me happy, I don't know what I want, what I am doing. I just don't know what happen to me.

Hanging out with friends? Shopping? Watch movies? Online? Read novels?

I don't know. I am totally lost now.

Maybe I have been resting for a quite long time. And you know right, once you stop and look back, you will find that what have you done for the previous days or weeks or months or years and why are you doing so.

I started to wonder why I am studying. Why am I studying so hard? It's like useless. 

I don't know what I am doing now. I tried to find something to do, I tried to fill up my time, I tried to read novels, I tried to watch movies, I tried. But what happened was I don't have the patient. 

I don't know why I don't have the patient to finish a book or a movie. I thought these things can at least make me feel better. 

It's like wasting time. I tend to use sleep to escape. I slept a lot these days. I don't know what I need to escape. Maybe the reality. Its empty inside. I know. And maybe its too lonely for years and I can't stand it.

It is hurting inside. I make me tired. I need sleeps to cure. At least in dreams I can feel better. 

It is torturing. For many times, I thought I was just making a big fuss over a minor issue. Or actually I am, but I don't know why, I am just stucked inside. I don't know why. Its okay. It will cure. It will. =) But please don't take too much time, I am running out of time.

Today I have made a mistake. A mistake that made people hate me. It's like making everyone hate me. I am done. Seriously. 

You are my love, now and forever

I thought I will be able to introduce you to my friends. 

But no, you don't have the bless.

You are a mischievous girl, you like to play around.

You are only 3 months old.

I don't know why this will happen.

May you rest in peace. 

You will always be my love, for now and forever.

Last Farewell

It has been a long time since the last post.

Have been travelled around UK for 3 weeks and I missed it so much. 

I missed the cool weather there.

I missed the kind people there.

I missed the peaceful life there. 

I missed the shopping time in London.

I missed the green there.

I missed the cow there.

Oh damn, I miss it so much!

The memories in Lancaster and London started to fade now.

I started to forget how I spent my day there.

Never mind, photos will help me to recall all of it. =)

Oh, my new sem start!

Oh, that means I need to start working hard again. T^T

Never mind, I need to cherish every moment that I have. =)))

By the way, I have read a novel during this Hari Raya short break: 

你没说再见———橘子

It has been a while since my last reading. 

Oh, I think I should start to read again. =P

I am always a big fans of hers. She is very good in writing heartbreaking stories. 

There is always a weird feelings after reading her heartbreaking novels, 

I should be happy that I am not that into a story when I am reading novels.

Because it means that I may not be moved by the heartbreaking story that she wrote.

But I cried when I read it. =.=

I am not good in writing novel review so I am not going to write it here. =D

By the way, that's all for today. 

The longer I left out my blog, the longer it takes me to type a short post. Sigh.

I-JUST-DON'T-KNOW-WHAT-TO-TYPE.

Bestiess =)

Dandelion!

 London Eye! Do you notice the rainbow?

Big Ben!

The green! The cow!

=)

I like the contrast of the green and the sky.<3

Me with a lit'tle makeup =p

With the make-up. Thanks Joee.

只差一步就能够完整的结果，

结果我们就是走不到那一步；

当时的我们谁也不会相信的结果，

结果往后的我们，

却只得相信。