I Am Nothing Without You ♥

I will be leaving soon.
Actually it is quite scaring.
I can't sleep last night.
Nevermind,I will try my best.
24 hours left.
It's a path to become an adult.
I need to face it not to escape it.
People who can fits in a new surrounding will survive.
So I will survive too.
:)

You Are Standing Far Away From Me ♥

Hello there.
I just knew that I am leaving next week.
It was so suddenly when this morning I received the phone call.
Oh, I mean actually I already pretend and feel that I am going
but when it become reality, I still need some times to made myself believe it.
Actually you can't say that I am very unhappy after knowing myself gonna leave
but in the other side, I am not happy too.
Its just, for me it is a fact and I must face it so that I will become more responsible
and mature when I face the problem.
Its a good thing right?I will become more mature and responsible.
So nothing much to talk about it.
Oh, I think I will choose accounting.Its better for me I think.
Plus MBTI test shown that accounting suit me.
money money money. :)
If I can earn money, my parents' life will be easier.
If I can earn money, I can buy myself many many branded stuff.
If I can earn money, my sis and bro tuition fees won't be a problem for my parents.
If I can earn money, I can buy myself a big house.
If I can earn money, bla bla bla...
So this are the advantages if I can earn more money.
That's all for today.
I think I need to start packing .
Cheers.

When You're Gone ♥

I am very angry now.
I think I am going to be mad.
Since when our relationship changed?
Since when we can't talk to each other?
Since when we can't sit down and talk over something?
Is it my fault to made things worse?
Is it my fault that I feel that we can't sit down and discuss something?
Is it my fault to let someone to be the middle person between us?
Is it my fault that I made you feel that I am not a good girl?
Is it my fault that I made you feel disappointed?
Is it my fault that I have my dream?
Is it my fault that I have such a vain hope?
Is it my fault to choose a better school?
Is it my fault to be the first child?
Is it my fault that I don't feel like talk to you just because to avoid any fighting?
Do you think that I didn't think for myself?
I do but the truth is you don't even give me a chance to say about it.
You choose the school for me, and said that it's good for me.
What about me?
Everytime when I tried to talk about it, you will just say something with a louder voice and I can't fight back.
I didn't blame you for not giving me to study oversea because I knew that you can't afford it.
I knew you can't afford that so I didn't even think about that .
But at least let me choose my school here.
I wouldn't choose an expensive school to study but at least let me choose.
I am the one who decide my future.
What for to skip all those stupid exam papers just to shorthen the study time?
Just because I am the eldest child is it?
Everytime talk about that I don't feel like to go on.
I am tired.
Your acting will force me to choose the course that I don't like.
But I know I am stupid and childish if I do so.
I am so sorry because I can't agree with you.
I can't.I need some time to made myself to accept that stupid school.
I am so sorry but I won't start to study if I can't made myself to accept it.
It will make me not to study if I attend the school.
I will try to find some job so that I can earn a little tuition fees.
You know what?
Sometimes,its just sometimes, I really think that it is unfair.
It is unfair.
I really hate myself much.
I really do.
2009 sucks.
It changed everything.

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Fall For You ♥

Omg.I spent 3 days in my blog.
I finally can post comment on it.
I quite like it.
How do you think?